Men behind my dreams

The Men behind my dreams

 

 

 

          In my years in earth, I had always been closed to the men of my life. First, when I was three years old , i was left by my father who committed suicide out of unknown reasons,maybe for sure he lost God that he loses his hope to live.It was so frustrating remembering the thought of losing him just ending his own life. But life must go on, still many men could loved me besides the Almighty father and my genetic father. As i grew older, i was so closed to my uncles and grandparents. They taught me how to be boyish :-). I loved to be with them. I learned how to climb mountains, I learned how to get and cut firewood and I learned how to knock out my cousins as well. Everyday and every year, i idolized the way they taught me how to lived my life. I'm getting stronger like the way they wanted it to be. Suddenly, an Adan came whom I least expect it and made my heart so weak. We bond together, we laugh and loved each other. He's the first man, I loved and cared than any men at all. I learned how to fight for him even my beloved uncles and grandparents. It was sad that I learned to threw painful words to them. Me and Adan wanted to be together for a lifetime but time and people around us didn't allowed it to happen until our relationship began to disappear (thanks for loving me, anyway).
        We wouldn't really know exactly where we are going and whom we are destined to be with us, until faith came in. He is just there waiting for my call and he will decide who is the one for me. I lifted my arms to him and asked for signs  if ho is he? Few years of broken heart, the someone came just when i needed him most. He was there when i cried a lot and he made me smile. Out of nowhere, i thought I will be stock in there just waiting for Adan whom I used to knew and loved. A new Adan came along the way. He loved me because we are happy together, we shared things differently but we agreed instantly, I learned to loved unconditionally. Loving is not expecting often in return. It is total acceptance of what is there and who they are. I wouldn't say ,he will be the right one but I have to be sure that he is my only one.